Oh my heart

[innerslytherin]

For the past several months I've been having these weird attacks. I don't think they're anxiety, because they happen out of nowhere, literally. I am working away on something, not thinking about anything beyond the task at hand, and BAM!

Heart begins pounding out of nowhere
Shortness of breath
Light-headedness
Dizziness
Weakness


Of course, then I get scared, which does nothing to make it better. I literally have a hard time staying in my chair. I've tried breathing into my cupped hands, resting my head on the desk, putting my head between my knees... My mom gets similar attacks, but even though her doctor made her wear a little portable sensor thing for a while, they didn't find anything. I know mom's mother had a heart murmur. I also have pretty low blood pressure, and my mom I think has an iron deficiency.

I'm about at the point where I'm ready to call my doctor even though I have no insurance. I don't know what this is, but I want it to stop. I've decided, as of today, to cut my caffeine intake, even though today I haven't had any more caffeine than I did yesterday, so I don't know that that's related.

Blah. I suddenly just want to go lie down, but I don't have the energy or presence of mind to drive home.